I have to. Harry shuddered; blocked the moan. Begging never did any good. I can't keep... Shhhh... Karl's tongue flickered as Harry's voice broke. You don't have to say anything. I know. The sigh was vibrated out of him; Karl's fingers felt like brands on his skin. But if I don't now, I never will. When he woke up, alone and desperate, he could still hear Karl's dark laughter in his ears.
I have to. If I don't...I'll never be free. Her kiss brushed the corner of his mouth, smooth as silk and as cool as water; he felt like he might drown from the taste. You already know you'll never be free. No matter what. When he woke up, alone and aching, the sheets were soaked in the stale scent of sweat and the faint flower of her perfume.
I understand that you're betraying me. Betraying us. Never. I would never... The words stuck in his throat, lodged with regret, dissonant with the jagged edges of despair. The words stuck because he knew they were true. He had to betray them to save himself. If it wasn't too late already. He couldn't go on like this. It has to end. I'm sorry. When Harry woke up, alone and desolate, he wanted to rage against the fates for what was to come.
But he had to. He must. There was no choice. I object. The whisper was filled with the acid bile of his own inertia. I... I knew you would. Karl sounded sure of himself, smug in his superiority. So certain that it would come to this. So certain of Harry's answer. Come with me. Karl held out his hand; Harry could feel the heat of it in his bones. He thought he might burn to ash from the flames. When he woke up, alone and resolute, he knew what he had to do.
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